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packers ; When the doorbell rang, he nearly didn packersrsquo ; t answer . This was the last thing he needed right now . But the bell rang again, and Seth opened the door to find the kid Brandon Jacobs Jersey standing in the shadows . packersldquo ; Later, packersrdquo ; Seth said, and he started to shut the door . packers ; A twenty - dollar bill was pressed into his hand . packersldquo ; Look, packersrdquo ; Seth said with a sigh, packersldquo ; I packersrsquo ; m out . packersrdquo ; packers ; packersldquo ; You packersrsquo ; ve got to have something . packersrdquo ; Two more twenties were pushed at him . packers ; Seth hesitated . He hadn packersrsquo ; t been lying - he really didn packersrsquo ; t have any weed - but it was hard to turn down sixty bucks when you had eaten ramen noodles every night that week . He wondered how much time he had before Laura came out of the bathroom . packersldquo ; Wait here, packersrdquo ; he said . packers ; He kept his stash in the belly of an old guitar with half its strings missing . The battered case had travel stamps on it, from Istanbul and Paris and Bangkok, and a bumper sticker that said, IF YOU CAN READ THIS, GET THE FUCK AWAY . packers ; The first time Laura had visited his apartment he packersrsquo ; d come back from digging up a bottle of wine to find her strumming the remaining strings, the guitar still cradled inside its open case . packers ; Do you play ? she had asked . packers ; He had frozen, but only for a moment . He took the case, snapped it shut, and put it off to the side . Depends on the game, he had answered . packers ; Now he reached into the sound hole and rummaged around . He considered his sidelight vocation philosophically : Grad school cost a fortune ; his tech job at the vet packersrsquo ; s office barely paid his rent ; and selling pot wasn packersrsquo ; t much different from buying a six - pack for a bunch of teenagers . It wasn packersrsquo ; t like he went around selling coke or heroin, which could really mess you up . But he still didn packersrsquo ; t want Laura to know this abo Chapter 2 packers ; She had kissed him back . They must have both fallen Michael Strahan Jersey asleep for a while, because Trixie woke up with him leaning over her, his lips against her neck . She packersrsquo ; d felt her skin burn where he touched her . packers ; She was jerked back to the present as her father reached for the controls of the heater on the dashboard . packersldquo ; Are you too hot ? packersrdquo ; packers ; Trixie shook her head . packersldquo ; No, packersrdquo ; she said . packersldquo ; It packersrsquo ; s okay . packersrdquo ; But it wasn packersrsquo ; t, not anymore, not by a long shot . packers ; Daniel fiddled with the knob for another moment . This was the nightmare that sank its teeth into every parent packersrsquo ; s neck . Your child is hurt . How quickly can you make it better ? packers ; What if you can packersrsquo ; t ? packers ; Beneath the tires, he heard the name that he couldn packersrsquo ; t get out of his head, not since the moment he packersrsquo ; d found Trixie in the bathroom . packers ; Who did this to you ? packers ; Jason . Jason Underhill . packers ; In a tornado of pure fury, Daniel had grabbed the first thing he could lay hold of - a soap dish - and hurled it into the bathroom mirror . Trixie had started shrieking, shaking so hard it took him Mario Manningham Jersey five minutes to calm her down . He didn packersrsquo ; t know who packersrsquo ; d been more shocked at the outburst : Trixie, who packersrsquo ; d never seen him like this, or Daniel himself, who packersrsquo ; d forgotten . After that, he packersrsquo ; d been careful which questions he asked his daughter . It wasn packersrsquo ; t that he didn packersrsquo ; t want to talk to her ; he was just afraid to hear her answer, and even more afraid he would again do the wrong thing . He had never learned the protocol for this . It went beyond comfort ; it went beyond parenting . It meant transforming all the rage he felt right now - enough to breathe fire and blow out the windshield packersndash Hakeem Nicks Jersey ; into words that spread like balm, invisible comfort for wounds too broad to see . packerslt ; / p packersgt ; packerslt ; p packersgt ; Suddenly, Daniel braked hard . The logging truck in front of them was weaving over the median line of the divided highway . packersldquo ; He packersrsquo ; s going to kill someone, packersrdquo ; Daniel said, and Trixie thought, Let it be me . She felt numb from the waist down, a mermaid encased in ice . packersldquo ; Will Mom meet us there ? packersrdquo ; packers ; packersldquo ; I hope so, baby . packersrdquo ; packers ; It was after her father had wrapped her in a blanket and rocked her and told her they were going to the hospital, when Trixie was still crying softly for her mother, that her father admitted Laura wasn packersrsquo ; t home . But it packersrsquo ; s three - thirty in the morning, Trixie had said . Where did she go ? There had been a moment where the pain had stopped belonging to Trixie and started to belong to her father instead, but then he packersrsquo ; d turned away to get her another blanket, and that was when Trixie realized she wasn packersrsquo ; t the only casualty of the night . packers ; The logging truck veered sharply to the left . HOW AM i DOING ? packers ; read the bumper sticker on its back door, the one that encouraged motorists to report reckless driving to an 8 0 0 number . I am doing fine, Daniel thought . I am hale and whole, and next to me the packers ; person I love most in this world has broken into a thousand pieces . packers ; Trixie watched the side of the logging truck as her father accelerated and passed it, holding down his horn . It sounded too loud for this hour of the morning . It seemed to rip the sky in half . She covered her ears, but even then she could still hear it, like a scream that sounded from inside . packers ; Weaving back into the right - hand lane of the highway, Daniel stole a glance at Trixie across the front seat . She was curled into a ball . Her face was pale . Her hands were hidden in her sleeves . Daniel bet she didn packersrsquo ; t even know she was crying . packers ; She packersrsquo ; d forgotten her coat Hakeem Nicks Jersey , and Daniel realized this was his fault . He should have reminded her . He should have brought one of his own . packers ; Trixie could feel the weight of her father packersrsquo ; s worry . Who knew that the words you never got around to saying could settle so heavy ? Suddenly, she remembered a blown - glass candy dish she had broken when she was eleven, an heirloom that had belonged to her mother packersrsquo ; s grandmother . She had gathered all Antrel Rolle Jersey the pieces and had glued them together seamlessly - and she still hadn packersrsquo ; t been able to fool her mother . She imagined the same would be true, now, of herself . packers ; If this had been an ordinary day, Daniel thought, he would have been getting Trixie up for school about now . He packersrsquo ; d yell at her when she spent too much time in the bathroom doing her hair and tell her she was going to be late . He packersrsquo ; d put a cereal bowl out for her on the breakfast table, and she packersrsquo ; d fill it with Life . packers ; From the moment it was over until the moment she entered her own home, Trixie had said only two words, uttered as she got out of his car . Thank you . packers ; Daniel watched the logging truck recede in his rearview mirror . packers ; Danger came in different packages, at different points in a lifetime . There were grapes and marbles and other choking hazards . There were trees too tall for climbing . There were matches and scooters and kitchen knives left lying on the counter . Daniel had obsessed about the day Trixie would be able to drive . He could teach her how to be the most defensive driver on the planet, but he couldn packersrsquo ; t vouch for the moron truckers who hadn packersrsquo ; t slept for three days, who might run a red light . He couldn packersrsquo ; t keep the drunk from having one more before he got behind the wheel of his car to head home . packers ; Out the passenger window, Trixie watched the scenery stream by without registering a single image . She couldn packersrsquo ; t stop wondering : packers ; If she had not kissed him back, would it never have happened ? packers ; The phone rang ten times in Laura packersrsquo ; s office, a room the size of a walk - in closet, but Daniel couldn packersrsquo ; t seem to hang up . He had tried everything, everywhere . Laura was not answering the phone in the office ; she was not at home ; her cell automatically rolled over to the voice message system . She had disconnected herself, on purpose . packers ; Daniel had made excuses for his wife on his own behalf, but he couldn packersrsquo ; t make them for Trixie packersrsquo ; s sake . Because for the first time in his life, he didn packersrsquo ; t think he could be everything his daughter needed right now . packers ; He cursed out loud and called Laura packersrsquo ; s office again to leave a message . packersldquo Antrel Rolle Jersey ; It packersrsquo ; s Daniel . It packersrsquo ; s four in the morning . I packersrsquo ; ve got Trixie at Stephens Memorial, in the ER . She was . . . she was raped last night . packersrdquo ; He hesitated . packersldquo ; Please come . packersrdquo ; packerslt ; / p packersgt ; packerslt ; p packersgt ; Trixie wondered if this was what it felt like to be shot . If, even after the bullet went through flesh and bone, you would look down at yourself with detachment, assessing the damage, as if it wasn packersrsquo ; t you who had been hit but someone else you were asked to appraise . She wondered if numbness qualified as a chronic ache . packers ; Sitting here, waiting for her father to come back from the restroom, Trixie cataloged her surroundings : the squeak of the nurse packersrsquo ; s white shoes, the urgent chatter of a crash cart being rolled across linoleum, the underwater - green cinder block of the walls and the amoeba shapes of the chairs where they had been told to wait . The smell of linen and metal and fear . The garland and stockings hung behind the triage nurse, the afterthought of a Christmas tree that sat next to the wire box holding patient charts . Trixie didn packersrsquo ; t just notice all these things, she absorbed them, and she decided she was saturating herself with sensation to make up for the thirty minutes she had blocked out of her consciousness .
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